Selfishness

Kaylee & I

So a few years ago a “friend” of mine told me I could never be a parent.  Well, specifically she told me that my husband and I would make bad parents.  We were too selfish, and could never give up and do what you have to do to be parents.

Well, I was on the phone with my best friend Tori the other day and like all mommies we were talking about our kids; our experiences and offering each other advice, more her offering me advice because her little is two years older than mine.  As we were talking and sharing I realized how much I have given up being a mom.  Don’t get me wrong!  I love being a mommy, and I love my daughter so much.  I never knew I could love someone so much. 

I’m just saying that I am not the same person I was 2 years ago.  When I get extra money the first thing I do is think about what Kaylee needs.  I almost never buy anything for me; instead Kaylee gets clothes or a new toy.   

No, my child isn’t spoiled.  My friend’s kids have twice as much, if not more, toys than Kaylee has. 

I put her needs first all the time and now I feel like I truly understand what it means to be a parent.  I was mad at that so called friend that told me that so many years ago, but now I understand.  I was selfish.  I used to spend close to $1,000 on Christmas presents just for my close friends and husband.  I bought every new piece of technology that came and every game I could think of wanting.  I always had new clothes, shoes and purses.  I thought I was okay because I usually shopped discount.  But spending money selfishly is still spending it.

I’m happy I have Kaylee to humble me.  To make me think about my life and rethink the choices I make.