Days 1 & 2

So, I'm sure I'm going to come up with other things to blog about while I'm working on this book that I've committed myself to. That means that I potentially might have a lot of blog posts going up... Or potentially not because I have to write 1000 words a day for my eBook, lol.

Saying that I'm doing pretty good I think... But then again I'm still in the stages that I've always managed to do in the past. I'm only on day 2 of my 30 day challenge. Days 1 and 2 were suppose to be for thinking about what I wanted to write about and asking others what they'd like to read about. Well, I thought about what I wanted to write about and I asked others. I wasn't expecting much feedback, I did get some and I'm very grateful to the people who decided to do that for me. I chose what I'm going to write about and I started my outline this morning. I'm not sure if I should put on here what it's about, I guess I'll figure that out later. I almost feel like that would be jinxing myself somehow.

I'm scared.

Okay, so I was writing my outline and Googled how to get published and scared the crap out of myself because I realized that I have no idea how to take that next step. Yes, I theoretically knew... and I thought I did know. I had a friend who did it. But guess what, I'm not friends with her anymore and she was my only link into the writing world. So, yes I scared myself. I started to hyperventilate thinking this is a huge waste of my time. I'll finish a book for the first time in my life and then have nothing to do with it.

Then I realized that I was as usual putting the cart before the horse (a saying I'm totally stealing from my boyfriend). I've got an outline. Yes, a lot of people plan who they're going to publish with and make all those other decisions before they start a book. They want to take sure that there is interest in this book that they plan to write. Well, you know what? I just want to finish it. I don't care if no one wants to buy it. Well, I do care a little. But I'll be very proud of myself if I manage this massive accomplishment.

When I finish this book I'll figure the rest out. I'll find an editor. I'll find a publisher. If it's good, it'll happen. If it sucks then I'll learn an important lesson. Maybe that lesson will be that I really am not meant to be a writer. Maybe it is just a crazy dream, much like the dreams of millions of people.

I guess in 30 days we'll find out huh?